First day back....

Today was my first day back to work. I knew after 8 weeks it was going to be hard, but I didn't realize how hard it would be. I barely slept at all last night as it hit me that I was going to be away from my little one for 11 hours every day.

It's funny how I used to shake my head at the women I worked with when they came back from maternity leave. I couldn't believe what the big deal was. I didn't understand why they were so upset. I mean didn't they want a break from a baby that cries, throws up, and poops all the time? Now I know. All those things don't phase me. It doesn't bother me when Alex spits up all over the time. Or even pees on me..lol. He's my baby and I love taking care of him.

So after a restless night it was time to get ready. Ryan was off today so at least my first day back he wasn't at the sitter. Still... it was hard to let him go. I must have kissed him good bye 10 times. I'm still not sure why I wore make up as I cried most of it off on the car ride to work. I look great by the time I got to work :)

Although Ryan is great with Alex I called him multiple times throughout the day. He would laugh at me and tell me I had nothing to worry about. Which of course I knew I didn't.

Finally it was time to leave and I couldn't wait to get home! I walked through the door and snatched him up right away. Fortunately he was awake and was smiling and cooing. That just made my day!

Tomorrow he goes to the sitter. I really like the ladies that are watching him, but am still dreading the long hours that he will have to be there. I know as time goes on this will get easier for me. As most people say I'm the typical first time mom.